vday sucked :[
basically this whole weekend did.
me & kara hung out basically all weekend
she slept over @ my place on friday AND saturday which was planned
and then we chilled at her house yesterday
so here it goes, my aunt chrissy died last week
i wasn’t super close with her really at least not lately
i used to be closer to her but she was in jail for a few months so i couldn’t really be
well she died of what else, an overdose. I wasn’t surprised but it still stung a bit.
I’m surprised I didn’t take it harder but whatever, i just feel numb if that makes any sense.
so that. then friday kara slept over and earlier we heard from this guy from school that there was a rave going on on vday so we were excited and called SOURCE and stuff and it said to call the day of after 5
my dad wasn’t happy that she slept over but what else is new? lol. he doesn’t like people staying over in general. but we figured we could get a ride from the dude maybe the next day and go to the thing but it didnt happen.
my mom had a dr’s appointment on saturday because she’s been sick for a few weeks, so she decided to finally go. apparently her blood pressure was through the roof and they said immediately that she needed to go to the hospital for some tests.
i of course freak out. im such a fucking drama queen but whatever, i couldnt handle it. so my vday was soo lovely :/ she went into the hospital saturday but i was hysterical when i heard. they thought she might have a blood clot which is what upset me the most. mainly cuz i remember when my grandma had one like 2 yrs before she ended up dying. so not a good association.
she was in there until last night (monday) and of course being the workaholic she is went to work today :S i wish she hadnt, it really freaked me out thnking she could die. me and my stepdad dont exactly get along so it wouldnt be good probably. we got along surprisingly well for the weekend, but he also didnt come home til sunday night (he’s a fireman so he was at the firehouse all night saturday) and went straight to bed pretty much. he was nice enough to help me decide what to wear to the funeral/wake on monday, i swear to god i should have been born a dude sometimes :S i am NOT good at putting together outfits (correctly!) lol. i love jeans cuz pretty much anything goes with them but when it needs to look super nice and matching it doesnt happen XD
so background too it was my dad’s sister that died and his little sister at that whom he was very protective of. so he’s broken up a lot about it and i’m being very nice to him cuz i mean it was his little sister! i feel really bad actually :[ she got into drugs and it really hurt him. and ever since he spent all this money on rehab and stuff to help her anyway he could and it didn’t even matter.
so i didn’t go to the rave with kara, she still slept over cuz i really didnt wanna be alone at the time. so that sucked, and i was worried as all hell about my mom the whole weekend. i was gonna go to clandestine cuz they were having a thing for vday with the valentines day hoodie and stuff, i got the hoodie off the website the first day of the relaunch but i wanted to check out what else they had :] i reeeally wanted the blue camo hoodie sooo badly but it was sold out before i could think lol but now i want the patches hoodie from the store cuz it’s sold out online too.
damn you wentz, taking my money. although i do give it up rather willingly haha
ill update soon, i just cannot get the hang of posting regularly & sorry for the long post lol i get carried away when i do
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